The last month has been very trying. My mother-in-law has been in the MICU, and a week ago we didn’t think she would make it. We were called in to have “the talk” with the doctors. It sucked bad. I love mymother-in-law so much. She’s like a second mom to me. Thanks to God we have been seeing her make small improvements. Not really in a celebration mood yet, but we are being cautious. We hope and pray that she keeps getting better and is then able to go to rehab and come home. She has/had (not sure yet) Multiple Myeloma.
I’m so tired of cancer. I truly hope that the entire cancer support system is not a racket….but a lot of me thinks that it is. I feel like if we had a cure for cancer thousands and thousands of people would be out of a job and many drug companies and hospitals would go out of business and for that reason a cure is being suppressed. That would piss me off huge considering how many people die of cancer trying to “fix” it with chemo and radiation treatment. All I can hope is that God gives my mother-in-law some more life to live and it’s a happy life up to the end.
After seeing what she has gone through, I hope that when it’s my time to go, I go quickly. I would prefer to die in a car accident or from a heart attack or die in my sleep. I don’t want to be in a bed in an ICU for weeks and weeks.
Death comes and goes every day. We don’t think about it until it walks close to us or someone we love. It’s a big deal. It just makes you realize that most days what you are “concerned” about or “need” to get done, is probably no big deal. We need to slow down and spend time with our family and friends; people we love. The other shit can wait. Be happy with what you have. Most of us have enough stuff….and should probably share with folks who don’t.
Edit: – A month after I typed the post above my mother-in-law died. So damn sad. I miss her greatly.
As of late I’ve started to get the feeling that I need/want less things. It’s a good feeling really.
As Tyler Durden said in the movie “Fight Club”, “The things you own end up owning you”. I don’t want that.
I’m going to start getting rid of things (or give them away) if I have no use for them. Why have 10 spares of something? Why have all this neat stuff just to look at? Why have stuff at all? If it’s not a tool to help me do something, or a thing to sleep in or sit on, or something to help me prepare or store food and water, what do I need it for? It occurs to me that we seem to work to get stuff and then need places to put stuff. Why?
Why are people hoarders? I don’t mean the people that have like hoarders disease or anything either. I mean why do people in general collect things or trinkets or anything? Why do people collect baseball cards, or pocket knives (like me) or anything for that matter?
I have enough pocket knives to last probably five lifetimes. I don’t need but one or maybe two.
This is a good read regarding minimalism. <——-clicky clicky
We all need to give up the pursuit of things.
I’m really feeling thankful today. I’m thankful for a whole lot. Here are a few things I’m thankful for…
1. My wife and little girl.
2. The fact that I have a good job and means to get there.
3. For the fact that I work inside and I pretty much get paid to do my hobby.
4. That even when I mess up real bad that God forgives me and loves me.
5. That I have a Bible to read.
6. My sister.
7. A warm house.
9. Health Insurance
10. My health and the health of my family.
11. The Lava Lamp I’m looking at.
12. The clothes I have.
13. My parents.
14. Our cluttered house.
15. Love (it conquers all).
16. My life.
17. Every day that God gives me another day to live.
18. That George W. Bush will not be President anymore (soon).
19. The beautiful clear sky and bright moon.
20. The changing colors of the fall trees.
Love people and use things….don’t love things and use people!
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