The last month has been very trying. My mother-in-law has been in the MICU, and a week ago we didn’t think she would make it. We were called in to have “the talk” with the doctors. It sucked bad. I love mymother-in-law so much. She’s like a second mom to me. Thanks to God we have been seeing her make small improvements. Not really in a celebration mood yet, but we are being cautious. We hope and pray that she keeps getting better and is then able to go to rehab and come home. She has/had (not sure yet) Multiple Myeloma.
I’m so tired of cancer. I truly hope that the entire cancer support system is not a racket….but a lot of me thinks that it is. I feel like if we had a cure for cancer thousands and thousands of people would be out of a job and many drug companies and hospitals would go out of business and for that reason a cure is being suppressed. That would piss me off huge considering how many people die of cancer trying to “fix” it with chemo and radiation treatment. All I can hope is that God gives my mother-in-law some more life to live and it’s a happy life up to the end.
After seeing what she has gone through, I hope that when it’s my time to go, I go quickly. I would prefer to die in a car accident or from a heart attack or die in my sleep. I don’t want to be in a bed in an ICU for weeks and weeks.
Death comes and goes every day. We don’t think about it until it walks close to us or someone we love. It’s a big deal. It just makes you realize that most days what you are “concerned” about or “need” to get done, is probably no big deal. We need to slow down and spend time with our family and friends; people we love. The other shit can wait. Be happy with what you have. Most of us have enough stuff….and should probably share with folks who don’t.
Edit: – A month after I typed the post above my mother-in-law died. So damn sad. I miss her greatly.
Right now I’m in the hospital with my little girl. Dehydrated and throwing up and has diarrhea. Things like this make you realize how fragile we all are and how thankful that I should be to have such a beautiful family. I’m blessed to have the health-care that I currently do.
I’m thankful to God daily for my family and little girl. Some days I am not thankful enough.
For those of you out there going through a similar situation where you have a sick kid in the hospital hooked up to an IV or something similar, give it to God. Give your worry to Him. He will help you. He has never let me down. I however never question “why me”, because I figure “why not me?” I’m just as available as someone else.
Life is not fair or easy. Do your best.
God Bless. Life’s short.
My daughter is in the hospital because she cannot seem to keep food or drink down. Seeing as she is only 4 years old this is difficult because she doesn’t quite understand what happens when you don’t drink while you are sick.
It saddens me and I want to take her place so she doesn’t have to deal with this. Right now she is getting IV antibiotics and also being re-hydrated via IV.
This happened once before in 2006 and my wife and I freaked out like crazy. At least this time we are more prepared to deal with it and we don’t think that it’s the end of the world. The problem is that we are worry warts. We think the worst is going to happen at all times. I hate that about me.
It started off because my daughter had a UTI (urinary tract infection) and also a sinus infection at the same time. She got a fever and then started throwing up. I am thankful that I have faith in God and I know He will bring us all through this. I’m also thankful that we have medical insurance and that we have a good children’s hospital close to us. I’m thankful for a lot of things.
These kinds of things just make me realize that there is really not a lot in life that is important other than God and your family.
I love my daughter more than my own life itself.
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